2019. Graphite on paper, 2 panels each 70 x 100 cm

Depersonalisation is a mental state where it can feel there is a veil, or a fog, separating those affected from reality. Symptoms range from a sense that your body, legs or arms appear distorted, enlarged or shrunken, to experiencing reality a step behind, as if it was a movie or a dream.

This is a depiction and exploration of my experience with this state. At times it has felt like parts of my body are as big as a house, and a second later the size of a pin. My tongue is just one part of my body where I feel an altered sensation. In My Turgid Twisting Tongue, parts of the tongue seem to disappear, or barely take form at all. Handwritten thoughts are written, rubbed out, and rewritten across the paper. The tongue floats in white space without context, but barely-there legs of graphite dust tether it to the bottom of the image.

Glacial Boils on the Derma takes skin as it's subject, recording a bubbling unease as depersonalisation runs its course and I struggle to keep track of my outlines.

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©2019 Claire Barrett.